November 2nd, 2007

Today, i learned little. However, a course of events today led me to the conclusion that one of the reasons Angel and i broke up was because our maturity levels were too far apart. I do not think i went through much of a phase in my experience of relationships that i would call a "high school relationship", a "high school relationship" is the attraction of two young humans. They will be able to do many of the good things that many more mature relationships have, however, what they lack is the ability to resolve conflict. Many relationships around the early teenage to early twenties fail because during a conflict, one or both of the people invilved do not know how to solve a problem.

The answer is simple, i passed this phase too quickly, and at my young age it affects me dramatically, as i would expect to go far with someone, it does not happen. The other main reason is that we are apart, and during the young relationship stage one feels the need to obtain physical affection from their other (i.e. hugging, kissing, cuddling, etc.). While i know i can wait faithfully for years before we get to be together in person, she could not, and i do not blame her, she is young, and she should go out and experience things, learn them herself.

Aside from that today was pretty bleak, tomorrow i may end up associating with my friends, but i do not know.

Beware raseriet av en tålmodig mann. it is in norwegian, look it up.

November 1st, 2007

Today began as a day filled with confusion, frustration, and sorrow. However, by the end of the day, i feel refreshed. I am a person who feels the need to know everything that is told to me, when i do not, i seek out answers, when i cannot, i get frustrated, which happens very rarely. I am a person of deep principal, i think about everything, give it thought, and express my non baised opinion in a logical sense, however, many people are irrational, and do not like logic.

A person of great importance to me and i, have been conflicting over the past week, and we just split apart, regardless, we were still close. But we were separate, both at the same time. So it confused me, and i could not figure out why this was happening, i know a lot about relationships but i had never encountered nor heard about any type of situation similar to this ever happening, the best way i can describe it is if your most loved person was repeatedly beating you with a fist saying "i love you" while they were doing it. I still do not understand this situation, but it has passed, and for those out there who are in that type of situation, i hope you get out, no matter what. As for me and my significant other, we decided to go our own separate ways for now, i for one know not wether or not we will meet up in the future, but i hope we do, with all my heart.

Now as i close i will give you all these words, Abscence planto pectus pectoris grow fonder, it is in latin, look it up.

Malcolm